Chaos fear, solution fear
The thought that I might have to bring all my office furniture home, combined with the stress of the Penthouse not being finished and looking far from a serene sanctuary, is getting to be a bit much. I can, but don't want to, visualize in my head what it would be like to live in that chaos of having desks and computers and all that work stuff at home. Whenever I've had an office, I could always count on it to be a place that I can control to be as effective or as peaceful a setting as I wanted, regardless of how our home looked like on any given day.
But now, with the lease of my office ending? I admit I'm a little terrified. Where can I go, if the home is an unfinished or dirty mess? Where can I find that control of peace, cleanliness, and quiet?
Obviously the solution is to find a new office. But there are a few cons, namely
- my commute would increase significantly,
- the rent would probably increase,
- the new building would probably be less quiet than the old one, and
- decorating an office from the ground up isn't cheap.
Then again,
- having gotten used to having that space I can control and make perfect, I don't know how quickly, if ever, I could get used to not having it. Sooner or later, working from home, I might lose my sanity;
- who cares if the commute is longer - it's still manageable - and I won't lose my sanity;
- who cares if it costs more - at least I won't lose my sanity;
- noise canceling headphones exist;
- wasn't I asking for a new decorating project anyway?
The pros seem to outweigh the cons.
So why I am scared?