I'm starting to feel tired, which is exactly what I had been asking for

After yesterday's glorious feeling of achievement, I now feel quite empty.

The books are out. The podcast is wrapped. I still have work to do (as I realized in this post), but somehow, everything feels suddenly too difficult.

I feel tired, like the year has been long enough. Why is it still November? Isn't it time for December already?

Though wasn't I just complaining that the amount of work I had originally planned for this fall was too little?

And simultaneously, while saying that, I realize that this fatigue is exactly what I had been asking for. I wanted to be tired in the last few weeks leading up to my Christmas holiday month. I asked for it to be difficult, a grind, something that makes me feel I've earned that glorious pendulum swing from creation to life.

Maybe it's all the non-work-related stuff that's making me tired. But who cares where the fatigue stems from? What matters is that it's there, already in the beginning of November, and I'm feeling like every day could be a trip to Mordor.

Hiking barefoot to Mordor? Yay!

Combining personal life and work stuff to make the trip extra painful? Sign me up!

RK out.