I've been feeling a little shitty lately. It's partly because of my hair - the herbal color I dyed it with is starting to fade and grow in an unpleasing way - and partly because somehow the carnivore diet is making me look fat. I look in the mirror and see a fat and ugly woman. Or that's what a voice inside my head is telling me at least. (The real reason is probably hormones and stress, but that doesn't stop the voice from telling me to screw my health and go on a zero-fat diet to lose weight and look pretty again.)
So I tried to listen to Christina Rice's podcasts and get positive vibes from positive people but it doesn't seem to work. Quotes like love yourself or your body is your temple or you only live once or life is short, eat dessert first or this too shall pass feel irritating at best.
So here's a quote.
Who you are today is not the end result.
You don't have to accept the person you are today. You can improve. You can change your body and your mind into whatever you like.
You don't have to accept average from your body, hair, or face.
You don't have to settle for an average mind or intelligence.
You're free to do whatever you want with yourself.
Personally, I have great temptation to go to a salon to get my hair fixed, get a spray tan for my pale face, and lose weight with the I Breathe I'm Hungry turbo Atkins chicken soup diet. We'll see if I'll do some or all of them. Right now I'm so angry at myself for ruining my hair that I might actually stick to it and look terrible until it grows out. Also spray tans are not my thing. And I've made a pact with myself to be a strict carnivore (so no IBIH soup) for 30 days.
But we'll see. Until then, I'll try my best to remember that quote.
RK
