This morning, I was watching a documentary that followed some entrepreneurs in their entrepreneurial ventures. The documentary was very depressing. The cinematography, the directing, the choice of shots, even editing - every decision in the production seemed to have been made with one vision in mind: to make entrepreneurship seem as difficult, depressing, and hopeless as possible.
The problem with me is that I let stuff like this get to me. The ambiance seeps into my subconscious like water into dry soil. Suddenly, against my infinitely better judgement, I believe that all entrepreneurship is difficult, depressing, and hopeless - not just the ventures that the entrepreneurs in the documentary had chosen for themselves.
Not having the time to meditate myself out of this mindset right after seeing the documentary, it has had all morning to seep deeper and deeper in. All morning, all I've looked forward to was a chance to meditate and get rid of this feeling. But there's always been something else to do.
It's as if the universe has wanted me to stay in this feeling long enough to see this one particular video on YouTube.
You see, I had a second (but not long enough to meditate properly) and I went to YouTube and it, quite out of the blue, recommended this video to me:
I watched it and realized that this uneasy feeling of entrepreneurship being difficult, depressing, and hopeless IS that anxiety that the video talks about; that, instead of trying to find my way back to a comfortable mental place where I don't need to go all out on entrepreneurial ventures, I SHOULD marinate on this anxiety and let it work its magic.
Because without anxiety, the venture is not real self-expression.
Without real self-expression, you're not really living; your existence is a slow death inside an ever-contracting comfort zone.
That comfortable mental place where I don't need to go all out on my ideas and can simply come up with excuses IS the enemy.
Nothing good ever comes from staying - and actively trying to find your way back to - your comfort zone.
Anxiety, fear, and uncertainty are the gigantic arrows that point the right way.
RK out.
