I had an appointment with my hairdresser on Wednesday, asked for a blunt cut, and I'm pretty sure she gave me face framing layers.
I don't know if this has happened before in our sessions, because before, my hair has been so long that the hair near my face has been adequately long, too, even though slightly shorter than elsewhere. I've just thought that perhaps that part of my hair just doesn't grow longer than a certain length because it gets so much more wear and tear.
But this time, beforehand, I had checked the length of the hair near my face, and it definitely got shorter during the session. It's irritatingly short now: when I pull my hair back, it stays down. I can hardly make it stay behind the ear.
It's not what I asked for. I asked for a blunt cut, the same length everywhere. I never mentioned anything about face framing layers - in fact, I didn't even know that that was the term until I googled it this morning.
Obviously this can't be fixed without cutting all of the other hair to the same length as the front hair, while not touching the front hair. And that would mean a short bob. I don't want a short bob. I know it would look good on me, but I don't want it.
Here's the funny part: a couple of weeks before the appointment I asked God for guidance about which length I should have my hair cut to. There were two conflicting considerations:
- My long hair looks good when styled, and messy on non-wash days. My appearance suffers greatly with messy hair. My theory was that by cutting it a bit the hair would get messy more evenly. What's more, when it rains, the top hairs (which are shorter through wear) curl nicely while the bottom ones (longer through non-wear) stay straight, which looks weird, so by cutting the longer hairs to match closer to the shorter ones, they would all curl evenly and the ends would look thicker.
- My face is quite wide, so even a length that reaches under the shoulders looks like "short hair" on me. To look like I have long, feminine hair, I need to have it extra long.
In the end, I decided to check what two inches looks like - not very much - and decided to have that much cut. And while the hair looks short now, that's exactly how much she cut it (everywhere else but the front, where she cut significantly more). I suppose the hair got lighter so it doesn't weigh itself down anymore, looking even shorter than I had anticipated.
Long story short: I miss my old hair. I wish I had asked for only one inch off and specified the absolute no-face-framing-layers wish.
Then again, since God led me to this hair, these layers, and this frustration, there must be a reason for all of it. To teach me humility? Or is this exact haircut perhaps what looks the best on me?
Or maybe this is a chance to exercise my patience muscles? Or to look into methods to grow my hair out fast?
Whatever it is, hair grows back, and I will nicely get rid of my old and boring highlights in the process.
