During the past few weeks, I've quietly dropped all delicious things from my diet. First, I quit sugar, then rice, then red onion. The narrower my diet has become, the more delicious everything I do eat tastes, and so, in order to suffer, I tend to cut even those out.
Just last weekend I was making scrambled eggs with chicken and decided that it was too delicious, so I had to cut the chicken.
Now, all I eat is eggs and tuna and a little shrimp. (And butter, obviously.) I haven't had beef for a while but I'm sure that if I had some now, I'd immediately decide that it was too delicious and cut it out.
What's more, I try to think about all the Christmas chocolates that I get to eat in a couple of weeks' time, but I feel nothing. No desire to eat them. No craving for them. Nothing.
What if I've completely and irrevocably weaned myself off sugar?
I know I already experienced this phenomenon last year. And last year, just forcing myself to eat chocolates for a couple of days reset my taste buds to sugar. I'm fairly confident that this will happen this year, too, but I wish I didn't have to have that reintroduction period of forcing myself to eat them before I can enjoy them.
After all, chocolates and sweets and unregulated hedonism are a major part of my Christmas vacation.
Someone might say that it's a good thing that I don't need sugar to feel good anymore. And that someone might be right. But in my mind, thus far at least, a Christmas without chocolates is a different kind of Christmas.
Maybe, if I have a little carbs in the form of rice and red onion, the sugar cravings will come back, just in time?
P.S. Luckily, I still crave monster sandwiches.