Well yeah. Turns out I can't just decide that I'll have this mentality every day, all year, without any resistance from my old mentality, the fear of life.
Don't get me wrong - I've been on a roll for weeks now. So perhaps I've become complacent with the progress I've made in rewiring my brain, thinking I don't need to challenge it anymore to enforce the new wiring.
But then this morning happened.
I logged onto my bank account to make sure I have enough money at hand to buy some bookshelves from IKEA and saw that the bank had increased its monthly costs. It wasn't a big increase, a few bucks, but immediately my old mentality raised its head.
You know, the mentality that I should save time and resources while waiting for death, instead of making use of those resources and living fully.
Suddenly, the IKEA bookshelf was "too expensive", and I should dead all unnecessary bank accounts and websites and everything that creates even the smallest expense.
I got so afraid to buy that bookshelf, even though just a couple days earlier I was planning, without any resistance or mental discomfort, to buy a sofa that cost four times the bookshelf.
So what did I do? How did I release the tension? And what can you do in a situation like this?
I admitted I was scared, and then talked myself through the fear. I reassured myself, out loud, that I had plenty of money, and I wouldn't notice any amount I would spend on the bookshelf or on the bank account. I reminded myself that good decisions come from a place of abundance and love, not from scarcity and fear. I took a mental step back and observed my surroundings as if they were a 2D projection. I acknowledged that to beat the fear and the resistance, I should run straight at them and take them on courageously.
Here's a cheat sheet:
- Accept that you're scared and realize that this is an opportunity to grow.
- Reassure yourself of your resources.
- Remind yourself: abundance and love over scarcity and fear.
- Take a mental step back and look at the world as 2D.
- Decide to grow your courage by running straight at the fear.
Be grateful for every battle: they are valuable chances to teach your brain not to fear the wrong things.